Green is my favourite colour

I think I've discovered one of my most fatal of flaws.

I have jealousy issues.

Or maybe it's envy issues.

Time to google dictionary the two.

Jealousy = typically refers to the thoughts, feelings, and behaviors that occur when a person believes a valued relationship is being threatened by a rival. This rival may have no knowledge of threatening the relationship.

Envy = an emotion that occurs when a person lacks another's superior quality, achievement, or possession and either desires it or wishes that the other lacked it.

Aaand according to Wikipedia: Envy and jealousy are distinct emotions. In its correct usage, jealousy is the fear of losing something that one possesses to another person (a loved one in the prototypical form), while envy is the pain or frustration caused by another person having something that one does not have oneself. Envy typically involves two people, and jealousy typically involves three people. Envy and jealousy result from different situations and are distinct emotional experiences.

Okay. So I revise that. I don't have jealousy issues I have envy issues.

But really, is one really so much better than the other? I don't think so.

Today, well... today I have a case of material envy. Possession envy. And I blame it on our rampant consumer culture. And the north. Yes, definitely the north.

Certainly not my own fault.

I want wheels. I want them SOOOO BAD. I want something shiny and fast... I want it to take me to the airport to get food mail, I want it to take me to the post office, I want it to take me to work. I want I want I want!

But I know I shouldn't. I know I should pay off my debts before I create new ones. But it's hard to push away the "I wants" when everyone ELSE has the "I gets"!