Inching closer by moving farther away

Maybe I am just being a giant emo kid over this because I'm always the mover, never the move-ee.

So I guess I'm just not used to being the one left behind. And maybe as we get older, we stop deluding ourselves into thinking we'll see these people again.

I miss my former roomies from Ottawa - - we lived together for 4 years. And I'm only realizing right now that I have no idea when I'm going to be seeing them again, and it kills.

I miss my family, even though I've not even left the island yet. My sister is sitting on the bed next to me, my parents preparing some feast downstairs. It's my last night in town and I don't want to go. And instead of taking the most of it, I have spent the day either in bed, or on the couch, curled up like a homesick fetus.

I'm such a freaking bleeding heart. People move on. Literally, figuratively. All that. I'm just not that good at it.


Sara January 3, 2008 at 10:03 AM  

jackie, i know the feeling. that's why i decided not to go home for the holidays this year, seeing as i've only been in iqaluit for just over a month. i knew that if i went home to ottawa, i would spend the whole time worrying about coming back up here. and i can totally relate to the post before. one of the families that I have latched onto are planning to leave in the spring. i feel like i have to be careful who i cling to for support cuz they might not be here a month or two down the road!!

Anonymous January 6, 2008 at 12:20 PM  

awwww, i miss you too! And re: when we'll see each other again... we just have to make sure and actually plan that tropical grad trip we discussed, so we can reunite and you can defrost for a bit!

I miss you so much it hurts sometimes!!!

Hearts!! Roy

Anonymous January 6, 2008 at 2:11 PM  

I MISS YOU TOO!!! Don't be sad now. Have fun with your family and fellow PEI-ers while you can, then cry your eyes out at the airport while waiting for your flight to board. That's what I did! Just make sure there aren't any hot guys watching you from a nearby cafe. Also, make sure you have Kleenex with you so that you don't have to walk by the aforementioned hot guy with your nose running like a tap.

I also miss you so much it hurts sometimes! SNAP!
- Andrea

geri January 6, 2008 at 5:56 PM  

Hi Jackie:
We are with you every moment you are in Iqaluit....Altho not in physical presence, definately in spirit....we're sending all our positive energy north...after you settle back in, you'll be ok....its always hard leaving home.